ready, ok, fuck everything up

Well, it seems that I'm no good at maintaining my friendships with people while working 80/hr a week.

Or maybe it's just that I'm not good at relationships in general. I can't tell if my friends are doing ok or not. I live in this haze where I can only pay attention to half the things I'm doing half of the time, and then I tend to fuck something up that should have been so simple.

I don't know why I'm feeling this way, but I'm wondering if I should be allowed to care about anyone, or if I should just become an old hermit and yell and thrash out at anyone who tries to get close. It would be for their own protection. Should I be alone? Should I push people away? Do I push people away?

Oh fuck, I don't know.

Just remember, I'm covered in needles, if you try to hug me, you might get hurt.

Peace-
T