I'm sensitive and I'd like to stay that way

Well, at least I try to stay sensitive. I think it would be easier, this life, if I were a bit more hard hearted. If I didn't care who I hurt or how anyone felt about me. Maybe then I would go through this life without being hurt. But when I hurt others, I have this deep sharp pain that haunts me.

I think Jesus got off lucky. I mean, he got to die for all of humanity. Who gets to die for all of humanity anymore? I mean, even if you got the opportunity, there's too much information out there already. Jesus had the timing. I mean, christianity spread like wild fire back in the early days. If you died to save humanity today, you'd probably just get scorned for being a show off! Welcome to the cynical world of the real.

If I could take on the pain of the world I think I would. I think I could take it. I think I would rather have me suffer than wish it on my worst enemy. I think I am being big headed and trying to steal the show. How is it that we are all so selfish? Always wanting what's best for us alone...?

Well, I've rambled enough. I'm in a weird place. Sorry if this finds anyone in a crazy state as well.
Peace-
T