Here I am, stone me please

I was thinking about how lovely it would be to get stoned and not have a care in the world. Then I realized that I would be a stoner. And I would probably lose all ambition. I really like my ambition...

I've been thinking about church and how I'd like to find one again. I think I may be able to find one where I didn't get pissed at the people all the time and they would be real with me and I could be real with them. But I might have too abrasive of an attitude right now.

Doesn't it seem like it would be nice to believe in something so much that you'd be willing to die for it? Wouldn't it be grand to find a cause that you could say that it is more important than SELF? I think I would like that.

Wouldn't it be nice to be able to die for your own sins? Or for everyone sins for that matter? What if you could just die believing you were dying for everyones sins?

I know that I'm putting this out there for everyone to see, but really, I don't think of it that way. I don't ever write to show off. Maybe something I write here can be inspirational to someone else. Maybe I will be able to go back and see how much I've changed, or not. Maybe I'll find that I repeat myself over and over again...

I know that I miss my friends and I should go to sleep.

Goodnight-
T