confused...

Here I sit. Trying to figure out what love is. Trying to figure out what should be done. Where do I go from here? Should I monkify (to become monk like forsaking the search for the love of my life)? Should I jump into the dating game with both feet? Do I figure out a seperation plan for my life? Do I figure out a way to get out of Seattle?

I long for someone to share my life with. I do. I understand that that means that I'm not ready. If I just stop looking then I will find it! Yeah right. You forget, I've been there. I know that I need to be actively getting out of the house, otherwise I have 0 contact with females. This means that "natural" getting together doesn't happen!

So I need to change my life. I need to not enjoy video games as much as I do. I need to go out and meet new people. I need to start going to church again. I need to be more out going. I need to repress the shy tim, and let out the life of the party of tim.

Sex...
I know that this little subject confuses the hell out of me. I realize that I find myself longing for it, like a teenage boy. I also realize that the act itself draws many emotional strings for me. I think the religion of my youth has placed HUGE assumptions on the act, and thusly confuses me. Maybe it's time for the abstinence vow once again? Who knows. It's not like it's too difficult, there aren't any women currently throwing themselves at me.

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well.
Peace-
T