So I sat around all day today wondering why I criticised Kevin for saying there are some things one can't understand when I know that I use that argument with myself all the time when trying to make sense of everything. And I realized this whole thing, for me anyway, has really just been a battle with myself. And I think that is why I got so worked up. The things you guys say are things I think still believe somewhere in my head and am just questioning them out loud. It was nice to actually get the conversation that's been going on in my head out on "paper" and I think I've learned some things, but confusion is frustrating and I'm sorry, it was innapropriate for me to let myself direct all that frustration towards you guys.