reverence, respect, loving, fucking and greenlake...
My mom was always pretty cool while I grew up. She raised me as best a single mother could, although she may have beena little overprotective in my highschool years, but she was always someone I could talk to. Now, she is the quintisential grandmother... ok not the quintisential one, the one where you can't have any yelling or running at her house. I think I understand my mom and step-dad's want for respect, but I think they want reverence. It seems that respect can include fun like running and screaming, but maybe I'm just a kid still and wouldn't understand respect.
On respect, can you respect someone and still want to fuck them? Or do you have to make love to someone you respect? What does respect mean? Does it mean that you must avoid certain topics of conversation? Does it mean that you must revere them?
What about love? Are you supposed to respect them to the point of letting go of your love for them? Someone once said that if you love something, you let it go, if it comes back to you then you know it's love. And if you can't trust people because everyone you've fallen for has been past the point of loving you. It's a hard knock life.
Well, I ran around greenlake this morning. It felt so good to get the air moving through my lungs. It was hella cold... I think it was like 32 degrees or so:) Anyway, I love this feeling... and I'm off to help Aaron build a computer.
Peace-
T
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Dude. I -almost- copied and pasted in response to your questions. The biggest thing I've figured out lately is that NO ONE has the answers to your questions. You make your own answers by what fits with your own life experience. Someone elses' answers won't work for you.
To quote myself on a never posted draft blog...
"I have come to the realization that the acceptance I have craved from others and the 'spark' I have found to be so elusive is that way because it does not exist anywhere except in my mind.
In my search for happiness I have been a dumb ass and placed its quantification on external sources and not on my own internal validation. This always leads me to complete catastrophic failure at some point. The reason for this isn't complex, it is actually fairly simple. It is because I do not allow situations to develop as they should in their own time. Instead, I being an egocentric person try to control and manipulate situations as if I have a sense of what the best for all parties involved can be.
Incredible isn't it?
By trying to control all aspects of my life, I actually create the chaos that I fear in the first place.
I guess the point I'm trying to get to here is that by being detached from the results and more concerned with the journey I get more out of life. When I have faith in the uncertainty of the universe and have acceptance of the breath of each moment, well..... The bliss of joyous harmony may just actually come my way."
Maybe I will post this.
Sorry for taking over your comments section Tim.
Keri
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