the introspective fool
It's weird. I'm weird. Why are the 2 feelings I have for my "ex" love and hate? Why am I always thinking about what might have been? Why can't I just say "Fuck you" and forget about her? Why do I have to be sitting here thinking about everything and nothing? Why can't I find love?
I realized last night that I am not really outgoing. I am more about working on myself and more of a loner/introvert than a social climber/partying/extrovert.
I'm sure my introvertedness is part of the reason I've only kissed 3 girls. Maybe my "ex" gave me the self assuredness for a little while, but then she told me to get the fuck out. I think that could be the reason why I hate. I'm not one to easily let my walls down and let people see the real me. I'm shy, I'm introverted, I'm not the one who makes all your friends comfortable, but once I am assured that they won't hurt me I CAN open up.
*sigh*
*hugs*
-Tim
2 Comments:
We fill our minds with what might have, should have, could have been because what we see is happy. But that isn't what we are feeling. What to aim for is the moment when you can remember the happy without the thoughts of "what if?" When we can remember and smile, and be happy to go down that new road that we just built.
But in the meantime, while you are waiting to see that road... go on and say it.. say it loud " FUCK YOU!" And atleast for one second. Mean it.
you're cute Tim, not weird. Maybe you should show people you care about the side of you that you show the world with your blog... I dont know you, never will;and from reading your blog, i think you're a fantastic guy, with a lot of love to give...
Keep smiling...
Isabel
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