a little distraction

A little distraction...

They say that it's a game and that I'm a playa,
They say the goal is to not fall in love,
I thought I was in control,
I knew we didn't have much in common,
But I thought my love would suffice,
I made her my life,
She never loved me,

I drink to forget, I drink to be friendly,
I drink to be outgoing, I drink alot,

Then I met her, I know she's married,
I know I shouldn't flirt,
I know that there's a sacred bond I am not respecting,
but the distraction is nice, the feeling of being someone that people want to chat with, the feeling of desire,
so I flirt back, I don't know that it's wrong, I don't have absolutes,
I used to...

There was a time when I was saving myself for marriage,
There was a time when I believed love just happened,
There was a time I believed that once in a relationship I would be totally satisfied,
instead it turned out to bring in my self doubt, it makes me hurt,

So it's time for 1 more drink and 1 more day of trying to forget her.

Thank you for your distractions-
Tim