Nothing to say?

So I have 3 days of vacation left. I'm falling behind on my piano work. I want to be an excellent piano player, but it's hard to find the time sometimes. (also hard to make it a priority when you're trying to get through a difficult piece)

Anyway, the problem with match.com is that you have to pay to use it. You don't have to pay to put up a profile you just have to pay to email. Of course I'm not sure I'm in a get to know new people part of my life yet. But there's never time like the present.

While I'm writing this, I'm listening to Brak tell it like it is.

Work starts in 3 days. So much to do, so little time. should I shave before I go back? Should I pay for match.com or move on to a different service? Should I go into hibernation while I work for a while?

Maybe I should just listen to some nice tunes and smoke a bowl:)
Peace-

The "am I a good person?" question

I had a friend ask me if I thought they were a good person. Of course I said yes, but couldn't offer any substantial proof.

I think the question is more relative than anything. Am I good compared to the next person? Or am I good compared to Charles Manson? Or am I good compared to Jesus Christ of Nazareth?

I think before you ask if you're a good person, you need to decide what you're shooting for. Am I good compared to ghandi? Probably not?

Being a good person is a daily struggle. You take 1 thing that makes you a good person and I could maybe point out 1 thing that makes you a bad person. There are no good/bad people. There are just people.

If you aren't a child molester/rapist/alcoholic/non-motivated/drug addict/constant complainer/murderer/stealing candy from babies person then you're pretty damn good in my book. If people aren't constantly leaving the room when you enter, then you probably have friends somewhere:)

Be content to know that you are loved beyond your ability to comprehend. And love your neighbor as yourself.

What's up?

So I have 5 days of freedom left. Not that I'm going to mind work at all. It'll be nice to have something take up my day time hours. Although I may miss the freedom to fo whatever I want I thrive in a work environment, and I really like to thrive.

Well, I need to go shower. Peace-

piano & competition

I think that on some level all people want to have a boyfriend/girlfriend that is sought after by others. At least I think attraction partially works due to outside influence. I saw a movie, Iris, where the heroine chose the nerdy guy, I think as a safe bet, partially because she had already had the wild lifestyle she wanted. So that movie actually goes against what I just said, but I think that it is due to the fact that having a greatly desired mate by others is not the only reason people hook up. I think sometimes people get together because they are lonely awnd find someone they can connect with on a deeply spiritual and emotional level, and mutual attraction helps.

I blog and match.com, and take my female friends out to coffee. Not such a bad way to live.

Well, I need to get ready for my piano lesson. I'll check you guys on the flip side, Peace-

I slip on it everytime

Here I am. I have 10 days of freedom before going back to "the daily grind" which isn't really a grind at all, but it's still work.

So I signed up on match.com the other day. My profile is shyguy1177. In case anyone was interested in looking at it. When I was testing out some of the features I accidentally sent a "wink" which says that you're interested in meeting someone. It was just the person at the top of my list. Turns out she has kids living at home. It was a little awkward, me telling some total stranger mom that I liked her. I think if I were testing match.com, I'd have them put in a confirmation or something.

Well, I'm off to see the dr. today. Evidentally diabetics' eyes have a tendency to go bad, so I need to go see an eye dr. I hope my new glucometer comes soon.

Anyway, enough of my randomness. I'm going to go shower now.
Peace-

personalities

I will never know some people. I will never understand other people. I had a friend, Justin. His personality was semi-cruel. I think that's part of it. I don't understand cruel people. But the real question, I guess, is "Do I understand myself?"

I have been given a disease that will eventually destroy my body. I've inherited it from my father. I will pass it on to my children. My base root self needs to procreate and I would like to have an heir. I've watched my father disintegrate before my eyes. He will die like Johnny Cash, but hopefully not to soon.

I wish I had a love of my life. I am a HOPELESS romantic. I know I could be a good lover. Now all I need to do, is invest a little more time in a lady's life.

Well, I'm off to Oregon, Peace-

vivacity

Am I living in teenage angst? Who am I? Have I managed to live myself into a hole? Am I the only one who can find my way out?

I met this girl. She's really cute, and awesome to be around. Unfortunately, she has to go away. She inspires me to be more than I am. When I think about her, it makes me want to be a better man. It makes me feel like I've been floating with the current and nothing has challenged me in a long time, nor have I challenged myself.

What do all people want? To fall in love with someone, and have that person fall in love with them. Unfortunately then the inevitable happens. Life doesn't end or stand still, it just gets annoying. You never see the "13 years later" in the movies. He's devoted himself to a job that he hates because they have a house they can't afford and she's banging the milk man, since he's at the house more often than her husband. I believe the reason that Romeo & Juliet is such a great love story is because they don't live long enough to fall out of love.

My ideal candidate for girlfriend:
able to travel
up for anything
cute
not hampered by prejudice
not hampered by fear

Am I cynical, a realist, or a dreamer? I think a bit of all of these things rolled into a complex little mammal that wishes to procreate:)

Today I write to the blackhole of the internet, not knowing if anyone is reading...

If you're out there and you're reading this, please email me and tell me hi...
peace-

How YOU doin?

I am officially invited back to work:) YAY!!! (*sense of relief washes over Tim*)

How about them mariners anyway!!! Details to follow. Peace-